I Hate Falling Love

Siang ini gue merasa kurang produktif banget. Padahal kerja, padahal dari tadi ngetik sesuatu, tapi rasanya kayak nggak ngapa-ngapain.

Oh iya, baru inget belum ngisi diary di form internship...

Barusan gue ngeganti playlist di YouTube, dari yang tadinya lagu Kunto Aji di album Mantra-Mantra, jadi Payung Teduh yang Dunia Batas.

Entah, emang beberapa bulan terakhir, gue sangat menghindari lagu-lagu romantis. Lagi dalam kondisi kurang nyaman.

Gue berhenti bermimpi tentang pangeran berkuda putih yang akan meminta gue memeluknya dari belakang.

Heartbreak... changes everyone, every soul.. wether it will be up or down.

I choose to be somebody that i used to dreamed about, but too afraid to reach up.

Jeez, im crying for none, for alpha, no reason.

I'm looking at the mirror, seeing my new style.

I cut my hair into short, it exposed enough my curly hair.

I try to learned how to put make up on my face.

It doesnt look younger anymore (that's how people describe me tho..)

It looks mature but sad.

I try to laugh louder than the rain

But the tears wont stop...

I hate falling love

It makes me weak

I hate when i am falling love

I have been told you many times

I'm begging to God, please save my heart

I wont it be pieces

Please cheer me up

There are so many things i can thankful for

Good bye everything past behind!

I celebrate my new version